What?

What? What? WHAT?

97 VIEWS???? HOW??????

Cool

I could get a lot of education here in Texas for not very much money.

But golly gee damn, I wonder if I need to get out of Texas.

http://catiej.blogspot.com/2009/04/explosion-of-sorts.html

^I feel these words

Tina Fey got a B.A. in Theatre from University of Virginia. Only a B.A. Not a B.F.A. and not from Yale or UCLA or something. Virginia. Virginia is where log cabins once were, I think. All this to say that you, Lie, who persists that successful people will never be rendered from state schools… You’re still a Lie. The reason why people do well is because of exactly what happens between reality and their person, how they choose to interact. My Professional Development professor (for whom I have softened upon seeing some vulnerability in his office hours “I’m exhausted” and hearing about how he had some accident last year that changed him) asked about graduate school and what we would study today. I had caffeinated coffee this morning; I raised my hand:

“Writing for Television. Like SNL.”

He squinted at “SNL” and interpreted, “Savings & Loan?”

“Saturday Night Life…” I said quickly, then played along, “Savings & Loan is my passion.” The class laughed. I wasn’t trying to be “funny”, but they laughed.

Tina Fey also took classes at Second City, which I have totally contemplated since high school. I don’t mean to obsess, I’m pretty sure this doesn’t qualify as obsessing… I don’t really idolize people so much as desire to look at them and learn.

Speaking of that, my friend Ruth – I love experiencing things by her side. She gives you a constant update of her thoughts and emotions as they come. “What’s happening, Angela? Why aren’t they talking. I want them to talk. This is creeping me out. Okay, I’m getting a carrot. I’m going for the carrot.” Her eyes are this luminous pale gray/green and her features are finely detailed. I can tell she’s not just spouting empty chatter. I get to see her grasp each detail of reality as it comes to her. I saw her, Chelsey, and Lindsay yesterday. They invited me over for dinner and saved me from spending Easter entirely with my dog.

If I go to yoga in my short red shorts…
…will my hams squeak against the mat?

Blog no fun.

SSRI medications have been shown to lower serotonin levels below initial level over time, despite initial increases in serotonin.^[19] This decrease in level did not rectify after the medicine was discontinued. However, the novel antidepressant Tianeptine, selective serotonin reuptake enhancer, has mood elevating effects. This has given evidence to the theory that serotonin is most likely used to regulate the extent or intensity of moods, and that low levels are what’s associated with SSRI sexual dysfunction and/or “mood blunting” experienced by people on these medications.

open

My p key has a different feel than the other ones, slower rebound maybe.

I haven’t slept all night, but I’m feelin’ groovy! or I’m calm actually yes, I am calm. I will calmly dress and go to the library at my school. Later I will calmly be the first person in line for a massage at the student wellness fair today (I remember last Spring, Sara and I stood in line for a bit, but it was the end of the day and too crowded, dinner time I think so I left). I will sit through my Professional Development professor’s condescending principles, then take my Counseling mid-term. It’s raining outside. Waffle was panting heavily with moon eyes, trembling with fear. He took refuge in Sara’s room. He needs to feel that he is between people… Or maybe her room feels peaceful. I feel emptied out with edges of electricity buzzing on my skin.

 

Addition ’bout twelve hours later:

I was gmailing an assigment to myself and checking on group project things when a cluster of rain drops appeared next to INBOX (1).

Blink.

The windshield of my sight in this state is made of a crystal more receptive to magic. The process of not sleeping recently is for a reason, it’s burning away my cynicism. I saw the raindrops and believed they were there. I zoomed around the screen more. More raindrops peppered the screen like rain does, first there is none and then there is more like a crowd of toadstools. Downstairs of the inbox, the silhouette of the tree was leaning and wind-blown. The background was brushy like rain blurs.

Someone in Google decided to make my tree and sky background correspond with my current weather! Wonderous! Around me the sounds of cars shrrrring through puddles and raindrops, incisive, on the roof and windows… An inorganic tablet depicts this.

Think of what this means! When I get in my car and drive to rehearsal tonight, the pixels will dye indigo with a few yellow stand-outs and my little gold Echo will be ambling along the bottom of the screen beneath that night sky.

Whoever thought of that, you might be in the middle of the machinations of a huge corporation using your graphic design B.F.A. for what it’s worth, there are aesthetics everywhere wanting frills, but this endeavor was pure.

Edit: Title: It workd! : It worked!

I’m trying to learn html

so I can get a college job where I mess around most of the time at a desk by myself and don’t have to interact constantly fakely politely.

Let’s see if this works.

Edit: Title: stripped it down

This thing looks so polished! Where’s my humanity?